Can today get ANY worse?!
All I have to say is GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!
I am getting sooo stressed lately and I cannot handle it anymore :(
I really hate to vent... But I need to release all this "grr-ness" :)
First things first... My former BFF's mother passed away with cancer on Thursday... I was such an emotional wreck only to get frustrated b/c I was trying to find out info about the wake/funeral.. Since my former BFF wouldn't talk to me, I was trying to get the info from a mutual friend.. Luckily, she finally came through :) And unfortunately the service was in St. Louis (6 hours away) so I sent flowers (might I add that floral companies totally rip you off?!)... I was so grateful to find out later that they were delivered and BEAUTIFUL. Whew...
However, Friday night I had some menstrual pain and since I was being lazy, I just fought it off by ignoring it and going to sleep... BIG mistake.. Saturday morning I was in severe pain.. I made FI call 911... And I went to the ER... I was tossing all over my bedroom floor... (and getting sicker to my stomach, "hint hint") :( I haven't had this kind of pain since I was depressed with my ex... And even then it only lasted 20 minutes or so... Well Saturday morning lasted an hour! :( And the doctor and nurses kept acting like I get this EVERY month... And saying how they can't help me and I really need to go to the gynie.. (No sh*t..) They basically weren't listening to me but they still gave me stuff for the pain.. So that made me happy :) I really think it was all the stress with my former bff's mother passing.. And my situation on what to do... And the stress I've had at work.. (Last week was such a nightmare)
Well... Things can ONLY get better, right?! Heck no.. :( This morning, FI and his mother get into it... (Quick background: His parents are retiring in May; they are moving up north and FI and I will be "paying rent" to stay at their house) Well, we have two queen size beds, so we always talked about making a guest room... One of our "agreements" was that since we're staying at their house, they always have a place to stay... Well, apparently we are not allowed to have anyone else stay in that guest room.. WTF?! We're paying rent.. It's our bed, our tv... Our STUFF furnishing THAT room and only you two can stay there?! Uh... I do not think so! FI and I are ready to find an apt... BUT, no matter what we do, we'll be looked down on...
- If we stay, they will always have something to control us with and we'll always be doing "something wrong"
- If we get an apt, we'd be "stupid" to waste our money in a small apt. opposed to a "house"
- If we get a new house, "how the heck could we afford it"
To make matters worse, FI is collecting unemployment right now, and his six months is up... The lady said that he will probably qualify for the government grant, but that doesn't tell us for how long nor how much... :(
And to top it all off, my mother asks how I'm feeling today, and then goes on saying that I probably have "...." (I forget the name) which is what my aunt has and therefore I won't be able to have children! Why worry me when we have NO IDEA what happened to me?! Why make "assumptions" like that?
Grr.. Grrrrr... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
Thanks for listening :)