Feelig sad for my friend :(
I recently found announced on Facebook that we were expecting (at 20 weeks, I am now 22 weeks). So a really good friend of mine wrote me to congratulate and to tell me that she was also expecting. I was soooo exited for her because I know she has wanted a baby since she was like 15. She got married last August and they were actively TTC. Unlike me, she was planning her pregnancy. We are actually pretty close and she was my MOH at my wedding.
Well we talked for a while and I told her my whole story about pregnancy. I told her about how miserable I was when I found out (it was not a planned pregnancy), how I cried for 2 weeks and how out of my mind panicked I was. I mean she knew how careful I have been with my BC. We were always very honest with each other and shared a lot. I mean I told it the way it was you know? Obviously I am very much in love with my baby now and would not change anything.
Well yesterday was her first Dr. appointment at 12 weeks. There was no heart beat and the baby had clearly stopped growing a few weeks ago :( I wrote her asking how it went and she told me the news. She is now waiting for the M/C to happen...
Ugh I feel like crap. Especially after telling her all my emotions about when I first found out. She just lost a baby she really wanted and I am perfectly fine even though I was not even happy at first. Sounds so unfair doesn't it? I now totally regret telling her everything because I feel it is hurting her. I told her how sorry I was, but should I just let her be for a while now? I am at a complete loss and even though I know I have no reason to feel guilty for a healthy pregnancy, I still do.