FEELING LOST AND ALONE :(
Lately Ive been feeling really alone with my husband being in Colorado. I've only seen him 3 times this year for a total of 5 weeks. It just kills me to even write that. the year before that i saw him 0 days because he was in Iraq. The year before that I saw him 4 weeks and then he went to Afghanistan. Next year he is scheduled to go to Afghanistan again!
I love him with all my heart and he loves me, and the good thing is that I'm never worried about him being with other women because we are big Christians and he takes it very seriously. he calls me most every night and we talk and we are truly meant to be together.
he always tells me how beautiful i am. we got in a fight in Colorado and he brought me flowers and a movie, like any guy he can be an ass but that's inevitable. i was supposed to move out there the beginning of next year and now i can't because the i would only be there for like 4 months before he left so I'm going to go try to visit for a month or so.
I just wish he was back, i wish i could talk to someone about all the pain i feel on a regular basis, i don't have anyone to lean on but my grandma, i love her but even she can't understand the true feeling of loneliness that i feel to my core sometimes. since i live in Columbus i don't even really have any wives to talk to or relate to. I've looked around for groups of women to associate with, thinking maybe there was something like AA for military families. nothing.
so a lot of nights (like last night) i tend to cry myself to sleep in hopes that someday it can be different.
sorry - just need to get this out there.