Finally feeling married....
I think weekend was the first time I actually felt married since the weekend and it was really strange. I ran into an ex boyfriend while I was out shopping with some friends - he was the first boyfriend I had that sort of went out of the general type I generally liked - he was a combo of instant best friend and instant physical connection.
So it was just really weird seeing him - that sort of gut connection is still there, and even though there is no way I would ever want to date him or get together with him again, there was this sort of moment when I realized that I am married now and that possibility of even seeing him that way again is just out of the question, and it was weird. Like there is a higher standard that I hold myself to now - even though I held myself to the same standard before in regards to fidelity and commitment. And it was a good feeling, like more secure and that I was just happy with the choices I have made that have led me to where I am right now.
I don't know... its weird- any other married women have that sort of "wow - I am never dating again" sort of moment?