I just wanted to drop in real quick and say hi and let you know i am in survival mode but still alive! :)
I've gotten a few pm's asking if I was going to come back on and I definitely plan on continuing to participate on this board. I <3 you girls too much not to. While I am doing middle of the night feedings I try to catch up and read all of the posts I just haven't quite mastered one-handed typing on an iPhone. ;) I really wish there was a "like" option so you would know I am reading and keeping up with all of you. Maybe i'll just type Like...hmmm.
Everleigh is doing great and is healthy as a horse. She is a pretty chill and serene baby except for when she is hungry or gassy. The girl farts like a grown man sometimes! Excuse me, not farts, she has "windy pops" as DH calls them. He says HIS baby girl does NOT fart! ;) lol
I have to say that breastfeeding is hard. There is an aspect to it that is indeed very natural like everyone says it is but it definitely feels like a skill set I needed to learn and it can just wipe you out. I would say the bulk of my day is spent nursing and burping her and there have been a couple of days that pushed me to the edge. Sleep deprivation combined with feeling like maybe you aren't producing enough milk to satisfy your infant plus nipples that feel like they are on fire as they adjust can really take its toll on you.
I know she is eating enough because she has wet/poopy diapers and with the exception of the first Ped visit she is gaining weight BUT since you can't see how much they are eating and E cluster feeds quite a bit I was starting to doubt my ability to continue breastfeeding.
At some point every day I wonder how much longer I can do it and every morning I just start over and hope it gets easier. Her cluster feeding I think is what makes it hard for me since my breasts barely have a chance to recover. However, when she gets her milk drunk face and smiles in her sleep right after a nursing session it kind of makes me do a happy little sigh and it keeps me going.
Here is one more pro pic of her that wasn't on the blog link I posted a couple of weeks ago:
I swear I want to consume her sometimes. DH and I stare at her at night and say how much we want to just take a bite out of her. Weird thing to say i know but you just want to smother them with kisses and get as close to them as you can.
My best advice at this point is to do Kangaroo Care with your LO at the hospital and at home. It is so comforting for them and is a great way for you and/or DH to bond with baby. We try to do it once a day if we can and I usually let DH do it more often since it is a great way for him to bond with her and he LOOOOVES it. :)
Can't wait for the next round of babies to be born and to hear the updates and see pics.