I am Losing It
Ah, okay this whole wedding stuff is making me go crazy! I got asked the other day if I was getting cold feet yet, and with out thinking I just blurted out YES! The reason I don't want to get married is because of this wedding planning. I NEVER wanted a huge wedding. All I wanted was a simple beach ceremony with just our close family and a few friends. I am not ALLOWED this since his parents are giving us 5000 dollars to use however we want, but they think it should be for the wedding. And since technically then they are "paying" for the wedding they get to have it the way they want. My FI has to invite ALL of this dad's side of the family which is about 60-80 people including cousins, and they all live in Houston. My family is very small and my intire guest list is 35 people included work, friends and family.
He wants this stupid big, CHEAP, wedding but is backing out of everything he says he will help on. He was suppose to get the photographer, but didn't, I did. He was suppose to find us a place to live, he didn't, I did. The list goes on and on. I am stressed out because I am not from Houston and know virtually no one here so I have zero help! Everything that I say to him goes in one ear and out the other. I am so fed up that I just want to call it quits and move back home...just run away from all this mess!