I hate life today!
For starters, I forgot to set my alarm last night and work up a half hour late, so I didn't get to take a shower and feel gross today, not to mention that I totally look like crap.
Then, I've been calling my stupid therapist daily to renew two prescriptions and he STILL hasn't called in my medication refills and I'm all moody because I haven't had my anxiety medication for almost a week. Plus, I can't sleep right because the other prescription is for sleeping. Nobody answers the phone and I call and leave messages every day and still nothing. I was all pissy yesterday and right now I'm on the verge of tears. And I hate being this way so that makes me even more upset. No wonder people go all crazy and do horrible things all the time - the mental health care in this stupid country is useless!!!!!! My first therapist was a nutjob. My second one ended up working for a guy who got busted for child porn and he was the doctor that my insurance went through so when he got busted (which is good) my insurance wouldn't cover me anymore (which is bad). And now this therapist won't return my friggin' calls and give me the medication I need to be a normal, functioning human being!!!!!! How are people supposed to get mental health care when all the doctors out there SUCK in one way, shape, or form???? (No offense to mental health caregivers on the board - really I'm exaggerating but in my experiences, I have not had ONE good caregiver.)
Then, a stupid vendor asshole guy calls my boss about a bid I set up that didn't go the way he wanted, even though I did everything I legally could for him. So now I have to deal with that bullshit and play Mr. Fix-it even though I did NOTHING wrong. The department who had me put out the bid won't call me back to answer my questions, so I have no way to fix it at this point and my boss and the Nazi supervisor above me are breathing down my neck to resolve it when there's nothing I can do at this point.
I'm friggin' broke this month and still have to pay state taxes and my car insurance (pay 6 months at a time so it's pricey). Our stupid federal tax return still hasn't come in and we were relying on that to pay the state taxes, but now it looks like we're going to have to dip into savings. DH is guilting me into paying half of it since we're splitting our federal return evenly, even though I paid in $50 EXTRA to state every month AND I pay more $$$ in rent and house bills than he pays in rent to me plus his child support.
I just want to sit in a corner and cry. Life sucks. I just want to lie down and go to sleep forever. While flipping the world my middle finger.