MADEMOISELLE`S SIGN OFF
After years of waiting, my time has finally come to sign off for my wedding.
The last weeks we have made the contracts with the venue, the photographer and fixed the dates. The invites were sent and rsvp´s came in.
While from the first day when we got engaged I felt so dazzled by my beautiful ring and was so excited about chosing and preparing everything (which I still am), now a new feeling mixed in.
It is an inner warmth and peace that is amazing me every day. Nothing coming from outside steals my peace away: I am getting married ,finally, to the man I love dearly. No doubt, no cold feet, just a very calm and quiet inner joy, a feeling of belonging and an inner confidence. On one hand I cannot wait for us to marry, on the other I enjoy this moment so much. People are very sweet with me when I go and buy sth for the wedding, explaining that the champagne not only has to be excellent but has to look nice on the table as well. :-)
In German they call it Hoch-zeit which means high time. And it is. A high time of joy, of love, of peace, of celebration. We waited so long for this day. There were our up´s and down´s. One thing that has never faded has been the love and this is why I am standing here today, in happy expectation to become his wife. Since I had it made for him, he wore his wedding ring every single day and he wore it with joy. I cant wait to wear mine. The wedding has become what it is supposed to be: a celebration of the happiness of finally belonging together in front of God and people. And this is why I am thankful for our guests who travel far to be with us in this important moment.
It has been many years I have been on PW now, seeing brides coming and going. Some broke up because their fiancés betrayed them, some had rough times and found their way back to each other. Mostly I saw wonderful, beautiful, painstakenly planned weddings with heartset details. Weddings that stand for the talents which are gathered in this forum. Ladies who can draw, paint, write poems, decorate, organise, invent and put into action. Seeing a wedding means knowing a woman in her essence. We can see her at her very best. She tames problems, overcomes obstacles, has doubts and finds solutions. Every wedding a mirror of the heart of its planner. And yet there is so much more to this. The women I met here, are bigger than wonderful bows, more delicate than their bouquets, stronger than the gold moulded into their rings. They are helpers, believers, mothers, friends, daughters. They stand up for each other, they postpone their weddings for the sake of their families, they step back to let their beloved ones have sth they need, they cry together, laugh together and when they fall, tear each other up.
I found people here I would have never found in real life because there are thousands of chilometers in between. Yet I feel I found friends. And I admire the ladies here, ladies who know what marriage is all about , down to earth ladies, who share their worries, their joy and their knowledge with each other.
I am happy and thankful we walked together until here. I dont have bridesmaids, but it is as if I had dozens: You ladies are standing behind me on my day, representing all the joy, trouble, decisionmaking and grace that was part of this journey.
I would have You at my wedding if I could.
Ashley, Jan, Tressy, Cristina, Jenny, all of You, so many I cant even name.
I embrace You and I will meet You on the misses side.
One more thing I am asking You for: the 24 th of June at 12.20 European time, think of us, and if You are a believer, please pray for us and for God to bless our wedding and marriage.