Need to get this off my chest.
Good day ladies! As some of you know, I found out in August I will not be able to have any children. My DH has been very supportive and told me that I can be a mother to his two children. He has four children, two grown and two under the age of 10. His daughter mother's has a very volatile relationship with the both of us and he has been going back and forth to court with her for various reasons. We finally made leadway and can see her on a regular basis. I have always wanted a daughter and he said he wanted us to have a relationship. We are finally getting one and yesterday I got my feelings hurt so bad. After dinner, we went inside this store and I saw the cutest jogging suit for her and a winter coat. He told me that both were too high and he could get them cheaper somewhere else. He said I never look around for bargains but the jogging suit was on clearance, both pieces for $10.00! I was totally crestfallen and put both items back. When he saw how sad I looked, he told me to get them, but I didn't want to because he took the joy I had originally away. He just text me a minute ago all excited about how he found her a coat. I went in the bathroom and started crying.
He is a great husband but he will never know the pain I feel of not being able to have my own child. He is always saying they are my children, but if that were true what mommy wouldn't be able to buy her daughter a pretty girly coat? I wanted to go get her a doll because she didn't have one at our house a couple of weeks ago but he went and got her one. He likes for me to do her hair and play for her, but he doesn't seem to like when I buy her anything. I have explained how I feel to him and he says I need to find a support group for women who can't have kids, so I give up! I am going to get the coat, but for my niece! Thanks for listening.