Sometimes my mother drives me insane
My mother is nuts. Certifiably. She sent me an email saying to cross certain persons off the list because she didn't want them to come because she didn't want them to pass judgement on me... she basiscally called me fat. I have been training for a triathlon for the past two months, before which I worked out (body pump/pilates/step) six days a week for an hour each time. I haven't eaten more than 1000 calories in a day since I was probably 14. She has given me a huge complex and made me feel REALLY guilty about my body because I'm tall. When I was professionally thin and modeling she used to criticize me too! Afterall a 2 isn't a 00 in her book. Its like I can never keep the damn woman quiet about it.
I found out last week that I have a thyroid disorder (which can set on later in life, who knew...) and so no matter how much I exercise my metabolism basically shut off so every calorie was stored. She drives me f-ing insane, this new thyroid problem aside, which by the way she is not sensitive about AT ALL. I'm not 5 ft tall, I'm not 80 lbs and full Asian like her but if she wanted to make her daughter that way, she shouldn't have married a giant westerner! She keeps reminding me that I'll look terrible in pictures we'll have for life and that I can't invite certain friends of hers because they'll gossip.... hello they keep plastic surgeons on speed dial and that is NOT normal. I guess she means well but my mom is being a flat out b****.