Taking a break!
I will be takinga break from PW for awhile. I found out I was 5 weeks along on Friday, but that my numbers were not good and that they were unsure I would be able to maintain a pregnancy.
Yesturday I had light spotting and today it is a little more. I would be 6 weeks today. So, needless to say I am needing a little time. My hubby and I have decided it is time for him to get snipped. I have tried for 12 years to have baby number 4. I have lost a ton of weight. I am now at 225. It is time to really be thankful for this next journey and one that I thougt I was ready for and yet find I am not quite.
It is hard to realize that while I am only 38 my body was done with babies at 28. I wish I could say I was happy to enter my "CRONE" Years, I really thought the Vow Renewal would help with that and then I got so excited when I got my positive test and my hopes were raised only to be squished.
So, instead of planning the nursery which I was looking forward to, I am redoing my whole house. I started painting today.
I am sorry to say good bye for a while, but I just need time to adjust and cry and laugh and smile and just let it sink in.
I really am happy for all of you who are expecting babies. I think you are all entering the very best part of woman hood and I know this journey will be even more amazing than your journey to becoming your completed soul by marying the perfect man for you.
I love you all and I promise to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers for very healthy and happy married lives with many healthy babies!!!!!
Blessings and Love Always,