Are you going back to work?
What is your situation with your job? Are you taking maternity leave? For how long? Do you plan to go back?
Here is the back-story for me, just wondered your thoughts, from a non-baised outsider...
I am a teacher (and I have been for 6 years). I love the kids and so much about my job. I helped design the curriculum for our program, created a high school credit class, and I earned teacher of the year last year which is a huge honor in my county. I do what I do really, really well and I have invested so much time into all of this (including getting a Master's Degree in Education). I have wanted to teach since I was a kid!
Here is the flip side of the coin. My job is extremely difficult and physically taxing. And I HATE all the politics and low pay of this profession. I am so tired at the end of every day--I literally spend most of it running around like a chicken with my head cut off--and I have no idea how I will be a mom at the same time and balance all of this. No idea. And, while my husband works from home and can be with DS when he is born, he will still have to be in daycare for about 3 days week so he can get his work done, which I am really, really against. I was a daycare kid and hated every second of it, and I don't want that for him. I want to be a super invovled mom that is there for my son--and I don't want to miss all of those "firsts."
I know the role of mom is going to trump all, and it just makes me want to take a year leave (which I can do, although I'm not paid for it), and see what the next step will be and if I want to go back.
The problem? Upon my return, I am not guaranteed my same job--in fact, I know it will be in a very challenging school and work environment--so much so that I probably won't go back.
I feel so torn about this for so many reasons. A really huge part of me is telling myself that I need to stay home with my son, and another part of me is saying "truck it out" and keep your job at your school: others have done it and you can, too.
I just need to let my principal know my decision soon, and I have no idea how I'm supposed to decide this when I don't even have the baby, yet.
What are you doing? What would you do? Such hard decisions to make!!!!