Updates?? Where is everybody?
Where is everybody? Any new updates? This board has been so dead lately.
I will be the first to admit that I have not been around as much as I used to be. I was in denial after our miscarriage thinking that we would get pregnant right away and I would'nt have to use the word infertility again! But, AF showed her face last week and we are back to trying clomid. I will be doing another round of 150mg. Taking baby asprin daily, using pre-seed, propping my butt up with a pillow, and using progesterone cream after O. CD6 today so I took my first round of pills last night. Usually O on clomid cd17-18.
I have been super cranky lately with no clue as to why. Yesterday I heard a song on the radio by Jason Aldean "Laughed Until We Cried" and there is a verse that goes. "Just the other night the baby was crying, so I got out of bed and rocked her awhile, and I held her tight, and told her it would be alright. My mind traveled back to a few years ago, we tried so long we almost gave up hope, and I remember you, coming in and telling me the news. Oh man, we were living, going crazy in the kitchen, we danced and screamed and held each other tight, and laughed until we cried." If you don't know the song, it is a good one. Anyway, I thought about how happy we were when we got our bfp and were laughing and crying and then about how we are back to trying and feeling so defeated....almost giving up hope again. Started balling on the way home. I was able to hold it together until I saw DH and then broke down again and started crying. DH was way confused!!
So, I am an emotional mess right now and the only word I can think of when it comes to trying again this month is "defeated". But, I am trying to hold my head high and look towards the day we get another bfp.
Sorry for my long rant....how is everybody else doing? Where are you in your cycle this month? Doing anything different?