I feel like a terrible sister
Very few people know that DH and I are planning for a baby, only my sister knows we have the reversal scheduled. Both of my sisters have children, and my younger sister has spent the last 6 years not wanting any kids besides her little boy. And now, all of the sudden, they are trying and are being completely open about it. Every time I see a family member it is, "I am so excited for Sarah to have another baby!" Every time I get on Facebook I see posts about it from her and from other family members about it. I feel like a terrible person for how much this upsets me and how jealous I am over it.
I know that when the time comes everyone will be excited for us, and everyone will be shocked because they don't know it is even in the works. I just feel like she is somehow stealing my joy. It is so stupid to think that, but I cannot stop. I feel so stuck in the process of having a baby, we are at a stand still until the reversal in January (which is so close!!).
I need to get out of my funk, and I am having no luck.