I get these days, or weeks, every now and then.  I sometimes even cry because of the one I lost on these days.  I would have had a 7 week old baby now.  But God saw fit to take him home early.  Today I just want to feel that joy again.  I want to have that little one who is depending on me for his/her survival.  I feel kind of silly for feeling this way, but I know it isn't silly.  It is something I think we all go through.  I still buy baby clothes at the thrift store when there is a really big sale.  I can't help it!  It probably doesn't help my heart any.  But maybe it does.  I don't know.  All I know is that I really want a to be pregnant and have a baby NOW!!!! 

I can't say i completely understand because I have not been through what you have, but I do know I have days where I just wish it woudl just happen!  I know its very hard to try and stay positive, but trust me, its what will save your sanity!  Your time will come sooner than you think!  Try to stay positive and try to focus on the small steps on the way there.  I try not o look as often t the over all pictire, I look more at things like my blood work getting done, my doctors appointment that was yesterday, the sperm results, my first day of clomid etc...I find focusing on some of the smaller things helps a lot.

You'll get there :)

I remember my worst "I want a baby now" day... We had been trying for a year and I thought "this is the month" (it wasn't) and my friend who started trying AFTER us "not to prevent it" was giving birth and I went to visit her in the hospital and it happened to fall on the day AF came to remind me how pregnant I was not. It was so hard and I felt terrible thinking that should be me and I should have a baby by now. I was trying so hard not to cry when I held her beautiful baby. Her husband even joked about being worried I was going to snatch a baby out of the nursery. It was a hard day. Just another one of the joys of TTC. (please note the sarcasm of my last statement) These kind of days suck. ((hugs))