One of DH's closest friends called a few minutes ago.  They were trying for their 3rd and final child and are having twins.  Their middle child was a surprise.

Prior to us TTC, I was super excited for everyone and never jealous when they said they were pregnant, etc.  I know every situation is different and I never compared us to them.  So why am I feeling like this now?  I've suddenly got this "why not me" attitude and that is so NOT me!

We are visiting my MIL and I nearly broke down right in front of her.  Both our moms want more grandchildren and we decided against telling them until after the 1st trimester so as not to disappoint either of them if we end up not being able to have any - they both have resigned themselves to the fact that we aren't having children so we thought it would be a nice surprise.  We have family coming over for dinner tonight and I'm not sure I can handle the questions if anyone asks....

Thanks for listening ladies - I love you all for being here, for me and each other! <3

It's absolutely and utterly perfectly normal to feel this way.

You are still very happy for your friends, but that doesn't mean you can't be sad that it's not you (YET!)

The desire to have children is unbelievable and so frustrating if it doesn't happen quickly, don't feel bad for feeling this way and if anyone brings it up a simple "we're waiting a little longer" should hush them for a while.

Big hugs xxxx

Claire, I'm sending you HUGE *HUGS* right now. I know the time will come for you and your DH. Lean on him and keep your chin up girl.

Oh Claire...I understand how you can feel and it's totally normal. Seems like our brain and emotion go crazy the minutes we TTC! Big big big hugs to you sweetie!

OH Claire.... :( ***HUGS honey***

Ditto Canooknic 1000%!! And we have ALLLLLLLLLL been there!! I've noticed I've been starting to do the same thing.... and it's not like me either - BUT - we all want to be mothers and that won't go away until we are!!

Your time will come soon, I promise. Hang in there!! <3

Thank you ladies....luckily no one brought up kids tonight, but I did get a text from another friend and she is due with her little boy in March *sigh*

I think those feelings automatically come with TTC. You just want it so much! There's nothing wrong with that. I hope you and your DH will get to share great news very soon! :)

Oh Claire - TTC is such a tricky thing.  None of us are jealous, ill-spirited people.  But I think we all feel this way at one point or another.  It is totally normal and I am sure that after the initial reponse you have the one you were expecting - excitement for your friend.  Keep your head up and don't beat yourself up over your response!

Thanks, Murph - feeling this way is just so not me, I was beginning to think I was a little crazy! Good luck this month!