Hi ladies,

For those of you who don't know, I got a call from my doctor's office on Wednesday saying that my HCG levels were not doubling, that the baby stopped growing.  This came right after a call on Monday confirming that I was 4 weeks pregnant.  My husband and I are absolutely devastated and heart broken. 

They said I should start bleeding soon, but they also mentioned a D&C as an option.  Being that it's a pretty invasive procedure, I think I'd rather pass it naturally as hard as that's going to be emotionally. 

After telling my family, I feel somewhat prepared to face this.  At this point, I'm just ready for it to be over.  I count myself lucky that I have such a wonderful support system.  Reaching out to other girls who have been through this has also helped.  I learned that the same thing happened to my sister her first month TTC.  She lost her baby at 5 weeks, but the following cycle she went on to get pregnant with my nephew who is now 3 years old.  She also has a 2 year old and is 21 weeks pregnant with her third.  This gave me the hope I needed.

The last two days have been traumatic, and I know the upcoming ones will be even harder.  But even through all this, I know there is light at the end of the tunnel, it's just a matter of making peace with my situation.  Fortunately I have my faith and my family to give me strength. 

I'm looking forward to getting back on the TTC bandwagon soon.

I'm so sorry missbliss :o( 

Sorry missbliss, sending prayers your way

Oh girl! I'm reaching out and giving you a tight cyber hug!!

-I'm sooo sorry to hear your news!!

Thinking of you!!

XOXO

I'm so, so sorry.... I can't even imagine.  Through it all, I sense your hope and positive outlook.  Praying and rooting for you.  xo.

So sorry bliss!  I am glad you have such a great support system around you and I'm sure you'll have a better outcome next time!

I am sorry to hear about that.  I have also realized that misscarriges happen a lot more often then you think.  I have had a couple of friends who went through that.  And some who was even farther along.  They all have beutiful babys now though, so it will happen.

I am so sorry. As someone who has MC I wanted to tell you that its ok to feel. I tried so hard to mask the feelings and tell myself that it was silly to be sad. This only made for a longer recovery. Take time for yourself right now. I m/c in May of 2011 and we are just not getting around to talking about trying again. So so sorry. Praying and rooting for you. xo

I know i'm late to the thread, but I wanted to give you a big hug.  I too just had a miscarriage and am still bleeding though my numbers have dropped drastically.  It sucks and there are no other words for it.  I'm so sorry that you too had a miscarriage.  I agree with you in waiting for it to pass naturally rather then a d&c.  I've been able to pass mine naturally so far although mine had some not so fun twists and turns along the way.

Any news?  How are you doing sweetie?

Thanks, ladies.  I haven't been on the boards lately but your words mean a lot.

The past two weeks have been.. difficult.  I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster that just won't end.

When the doctor told me I was going to miscarry, he wanted to send me in for more bloodwork to make sure my hCG level was dropping.  I went in on Monday, 12/26 and the next day I got a call from my doctor's office saying that they wanted me to do an ultrasound.  Turns out my levels are rising.  They went from 200 something to 888 in about 6 days.  They're not doubling like they should, so I'm assuming this is still bad. 

Had an ultrasound done on Thursday 12/29 at a different lab than my doctor's office since their equipment is more advanced.  The technician saw a gestational sac, but said I'm measuring small.  I was supposed to be 5 weeks at that point.  It wasn't even big enough for her to measure.  I told her my situation, that I was going to miscarry.  She said it didn't look like a miscarriage to her, based on the position of the sac in my uterus.  She pointed to the other side of the screen and said it would have moved "there" if I were miscarrying.  She said the doctor would call me after he reviewed the results.

The last few days have been the longest of my life.  Waiting for those results have been torture.  Am I pregnant?  Is this still viable?  Will I miscarry?  Ugh!  Well I finally got a call today.  The doctor said I could either be not as far along as I thought (impossible since I chart and use OPKs), or still miscarry.  He said there was a little bit of fluid in the sac, so I guess my body is gearing up for a pregnancy?  They want me to do another round of bloodwork.  I guess I'll know for sure one way or another after that. 

I'm certainly not getting my hopes up.  I started lightly spotting on Saturday, only a tint of color when I wipe (sorry, tmi).  It hasn't increased and even went away today.  I'm just so confused and want this whole ordeal to be over.

Anyway, thanks for the positive thoughts and prayers.  I'll let you know what the bloodwork says.