See, my FI is the 4th, but I really only condsider him my first, because 2 of them were drunken one night stands and my ex was only a one minute man. LOL. I can't help but to feel jelous or sad(I can't really describe the feeling) because
FI has been with many people before me and he has also done a lot more sexually then i have. He is 9 years older then me though. I just sometimes wish that I had more experience. I know that he loves me, but I sometimes can't help
but to wonder how I measure up to his past.