*update*

I can't begin to thank you all enough for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers.  PW is truly an amazing group of women, and I'm so glad I found all of you when I was planning my wedding.

My surgery went well  and I am home recovering.  I finally allowed myself to log on and read your messages, and I'm glad I did.  My heart has hope, and Daniel and I have faith that we will someday have a family.  It hurts to know that there are so many other women out there that have gone through this, but hopefully there will be (and for many there already are!) happy healthy babies for all of us in the future.

I wish nothing but the best for all of you...I can't wait to see all the beautiful  PW babies that are due over the coming months!! 

Much appreciation to all of you,
Paula

Hi Ladies,

We got the news that no one wants today.  Our little Smudgie stopped growing 5 days ago.  There was no heartbeat on the u/s today--we had hope because we saw the heartbeat 2 weeks ago.  I have all of my symptoms, even had my normal m/s all morning, got sick after lunch, and then just felt off.  I have had light cramps for a few days, but figured it was stretching.  I called my OB just to be sure.  He told me to come right in--and DH met me there.  I just knew, even though DH kept saying everything was ok.  It was just the same way I knew the day I was pregnant--a woman's intuition.

We're devastated, of course.  I have a d & c tomorrow hopefully, my awesome OB is going to try to get me in.  If we were to let it happen naturally, he says it could take weeks for my body to miscarry naturally as my body freakishly still thinks it's pregnant.

We're full of hope for a future child, just right now we feel defeated.  If nothing else, I have more validation (not that I ever needed it or wanted it) that I married the most amazing man.  He will make an amazing father someday.

I have plenty of good thoughts and happy baby wishes that I will continue to send to all of you!  I'm not sure when I'll be back on the board, I think my mind and my heart need a break from baby things for awhile. 

Have fun with your pregnancies...enjoy every moment!  
Paula 

Paula,

I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Take a break and recover, but I am sure you will have a beautiful baby soon enough! You and your husband will make amazing parents.

I am soooo sorry for your loss Paula. Please know you, your DH, and family is in my thoughts and prayers.  Take your time to grieve.  When you are ready, I am sure we will see you back on here with happy news again. 

I am so sorry! That made my heart so sad for you... You and DH are definitely in my prayers.

I am SO sorry... that has to be the wrost thing ever. :(

My heart is breaking for you - I can't even imagine how hard it must have been to hear the news. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers through all of this.

oh my goodness paula. i'm am so sorry for your loss. my heart aches for you during this difficult time. please stay strong and know that God has a wonderful plan for you and DH. i will pray for you guys. *hugs*

My heart is breaking for you.  I am holding back tears for you and your husband.  I can't even imagine how you are feeling right now and know that there is nothing that can be said to make you feel better.  Time and love will help you heal.  Take all the time you need to grieve and know that we are here for you.  Stay strong.

I'm so sorry.

i am so sad to hear this Paula. find strength in knowing that the amazing man that you married will be there to support you, and love you throughout it all. you and your DH are in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time. *BIG HUG*