Okay, so I was married once before (10 yrs. ago) and was never able to have a full term pregnancy.  I had a total of 4 MC...yes 4! in a total of the 5 years I was married.  I never made it past 9 weeks, I tried 3 different doctors and they all ran all different kind of tests but were never able to figure out what the problem was.  I know it wasn't my x's problem because he cheated (that's the reason we divorced) and now has 3 kids. 

Anyway, well now I am married to my true soulmate and we decided to TTC this month.  I'm kinda scared...I really don't want to go thru the same thing again, I don't think I could take it...the anticipation every month, just to find out that I'm not PG, or if I do get a +, will I be able to carry the baby full term?  My DH and friends tell me that this time around everything is different...back then it just wasn't meant to be. 

I am very greatful that I didn't bring a baby in this world back then...it just would not have been good.  I try to look at it as a positive thing, and just believe that it wasn't God's plan, but I can't help feeling scared.

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest......

Hopefully everything will be perfect now that you are in a better place. But, if you do have problems this time around I would try a new RE, they have to find what is causing this! Especially with new technology ART has grown a lot in the past 10 years!

I agree with AMiller, so many things can be done now that could not be before.

That's true but I don't think I could even go thru with all the tests and stuff again...

Good luck with everything!!! I'm sure it was because it wasn't meant to be before. I really believe everything happens for a reason. =)

I have to agree with jamiepeve02- it wasn't meant to be! 

I MC 3 times before I was pregnant with my daughter.  The first time wasnt to hard to deal with because I didn't even know I was pregnant, I just started having heavy bleeding (TMI) that didnt stop for a couple weeks so I went to the dr. and thats what he determined. We hadn't been married long and I knew we weren't ready.  The second time it was a little harder but we delt with it.  The 3rd time I was devistated we just told both of our parents and everyone was so excited and 3days later I started spotting and just knew.  It was so hard telling eveyone what had happpened.  The dr. didn't know why, he said obviously something just wasnt right with the baby and your body knows it.  I was terrifed to get pregnant again. 

My 4th pregnancy ended with a beautiful baby girl, it was the easiest pregnancy and a very easy delivery.  I believe god has a plan for everyone and with us he just knew we werent ready.  It made our relationship stronger and we appreciated what we had more. 

good luck and dont stress, I know easier said than done, but the extra stress is hard on you and on the baby. Good luck! 

Kym, thanks for sharing your story.  I thought I was the only one in this world with multiple MCs!, I'm glad to know that there's still hope for me :0)  I think your story was my confirmation from God, letting me know that it is possible!

Jamie, I now truly believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason!