Aww, try not to get discouraged. I know it's hard and you feel like giving up, but if you don't try, it DEFINITELY won't happen. After we were so disappointed last month, I decided this month to focus on something else besides TTC. We're still trying, but I'm focused on stripping the wallpaper in our living room and painting both in there and in the kitchen. So far I think it's working. I still think about trying, of course, but I'm not obsessing over it the way I did last month. Maybe tackeling a big project of some kind would help you too?