FH and I were due to start truly trying in April.. pretty much for now it was just not preventing, not really trying. So, I actually ovulated, and I'm SO frustrated right now.. I took two tests, one at 12 dpo and one at 14 dpo.. both BFNs... I still (at 20 dpo) have no period and I don't want to take another test and see a BFN. I try not to symptom spot, but goodness it's hard NOT to. (full tender BBs, sleeping 12-14 hours a day at times, stuffy nose, frequent weeing, cravings, horrible heartburn, and to top it off I woke up with a cold which I found out can be a sign of early pregnancy!)

Shortly after the second BFN, FH and I had a talk.. well, mainly I talked. I told him about possibly having PCOS, and about feeling too unhealthy to get pregnant. We mutally agreed to take a year, let me lose some weight and improve myself before we actually start trying.

I know it's what's right.. but omg it hurts not to try! My NIECE(she's 26) is pregnant (just announced last week), someone I went to school with is, and this girl I used to babysit (she's 19 now) is pregnant. I'm soo frustrated! I keep telling myself that when the time is right it'll happen, but I hate not at least trying for it. I want to be happy for them, but it's hard to be. No one knows really what's going on with me.

Ok ladies.. sorry to drop this in here but I needed a little vent.

Im sorry you are having to go through this JLG.  I know how hard of a battle it can be!!  I would suggest you go to your doctor and get tested.  PCOS is a very real possibility and the tests are very simple and non invasive...infact its just taking two sets of blood and peeing in a cup!! 

Are you 100% sure you O'd?  I thought I did 10 days ago and had dotted CH's but my temps were still very erratic and I think my body may have been tricking myself.  I woudl suggest you test one more time so you know and them make an appointment with your doc to talk to them about this as well.  They may have some suggestions.

Congrats on wanting to get healthier before TTC.  I know the struggle there as well.  I have a hard time loosing weight but try to be persistent and you will get there!  While it may be easier to conceive and deliver the more fit you are, dont ever forget your a beautiful both inside and out!! 

If taking a year is what you and FH think is best then I say good on ya!  You will reach your goal of conceiving soon enough and have that beautiful baby JLG!  And I know its hard watching people around you get pregnant, and its not that you arent happy for them, its more of a reminder that you yourself are not pregnant.  I had that last week and from what everyone reassured me, thats normal.  I'm sure you are happy and excited for your family and freinds.  Have a moment, have your pity party, and then pick yourself back up and continue.  I know its hard to do this, but trust me its makes you 10X stronger.  Each time I hit a road block I just try and think of the positive.  I have my one day pity party then think to myself, I will get there and it will be SO worth it.  Everey struggle will be worth that baby in your arms.

I wish you luck JLG and if you need someone to talk to thats goign to though the exact same thing, I'm always here!

Keep your chin up girl, you'll get there!

It can be a frustrating journey, i try not too test early but sometimes i just can't help myself. I also sometimes think i'm having symptoms, it so hard though because the symtoms can be the same for AF.

Good for you for trying to get back on track and healthy

best of luck!