The worst week ever...

This is a really crappy post, but I just need to get some things off my mind. First of all, FI's mom had an aggressive type of cancer for the past year and a half, and it got really bad, so we have spent a ton of time in Dallas (4 hours away) the past few weeks. We got a call last monday, which was FI's bday, saying that they thought it was time, so we rushed over there. Fortunately it didn't happen that day, but she kept hanging on, and we couldn't figure out how she was still going. So we had to come home Friday afternoon, and then we got a call at 1:00 in the morning that night saying that she had passed away. We couldn't go back, and she donated her body to science, so he didn't get very much closure. We're going to the memorial service this weekend. So that's pretty crappy, but he's doing pretty well with it knowing that she's so much better off and that he'll see her again one day.

THEN, last night, I was washing dishes and a glass shattered, slashing my wrists (I know, I know, there have been lots of jokes already). But it was the outside of my wrists. I think I tried to catch it and it smashed into the side of the sink. Really smart...I know. On one side it was really really really bad, like, I could see the bone, so...trip to the ER for stitches. Oh well! I didn't cry once, and stayed pretty calm and happy the whole time, so I was proud of myself! :) But now it's 6 1/2 weeks until the wedding, with bridal pics coming up soon, and I'm going to have this huge ugly thing on my arm. I guess it's kinda funny when you think about it.

Thanks for letting me get that all out!

geez jen!! i'm so sorry to hear about fh's mom... really i am - i know the pain of losing a mother and well, i just feel for him... you both and are in my prayers.  hugs to you both - i mean it!

as for the shattering of glass and cutting yourself - gurrll - you are a trooper!! the site of muscle, tendon or anything more than skin and blood makes me dizzy!! so kudos for being a trooper!! when ar the stitches coming out???

I'm soo sorry you and FI had to go through that! Your family is in my prayers, hang in there.

I have broken soo many glasses the last couple weeks, I'm surprised I dont have cuts like you. but, that part of the skin is very resilient, when are your stitches coming out? There is a pretty good change that it'll blend in with your photos once it starts healing, at least I hope so. If nothing else, there is editing!!

Buy a pretty bracelet to cover the mark or just let your photographer know and you can hide it or retouch it after the shoot. Keep apply vitamin E and keep your chin up. You're in our prayers :)

Aimee

sorry for your loss. God bless you guys.

you are truely a trooper. you get the trooper award this week. hang in there, your big day is almost here and you'll get to relax and enjoy the fruits of your labor, albeit bittersweet. and yes, like jess said, theres always editing!

wow girl what a week.  I'm so sorry about your FI's mom. I knwo how hard it could be when my Fi and I started dating his mom had just finished kimo for breast cancer and she didn't eve tell him til after she finished she didn't want to worry him.. Scary! you are a total trooper-good word dirty ;) as for the scar I second Aimee's response :)  hope this turn around for you ***hugz***

Many sympathies on your loss. Maybe you can do something special at the wedding to honor her. What about a beautiful pair of gloves? There are many nice ones now (esp. Caroline Amato). Otherwise photog will photo shop out the mark. Also I highly recommend Mederma which helps to lessen the redness and reduce scar tissue. Also, you can put makeup on that section of your hand the day of the wedding and no one will notice unless they get right up close.

Thank you everyone! I really appreciate all the support. We're definitely going to honor her; I've ordered a memory candle that we're going to light at the ceremony for her and my grandpa. It's just going to be very emotional. But we know that it's part of life and we feel like she'll be able to look down and see us on that day.

As far as my gash goes, those are some great ideas! Hopefully it'll heal up pretty quick. Fortunately it's sort of on the underside of my arm, so maybe no one will even notice :)

So sorry for your loss.  I know there is no replacement, but God definitely worked this timing out for the best, because even during this loss, there is great gain in your FH having you.  Continue to be supportive, he'll need it.  No matter how prepared we seem to be, death is never easy to deal with.  Take care of those wrists, & I agree with all the other posts for the care & cover.  Best wishes. :)

Oh, & one more thing...I would actually take at least 1 pic showing off the scar.  It would be a small symbol of marking the pain of that previous time in your lives, but how over time it heals in more ways than one.  We often try to cover our scars, but sometimes they symbolize a different type of beauty.