Where is everybody? Any new updates? This board has been so dead lately.

I will be the first to admit that I have not been around as much as I used to be. I was in denial after our miscarriage thinking that we would get pregnant right away and I would'nt have to use the word infertility again! But, AF showed her face last week and we are back to trying clomid. I will be doing another round of 150mg. Taking baby asprin daily, using pre-seed, propping my butt up with a pillow, and using progesterone cream after O. CD6 today so I took my first round of pills last night. Usually O on clomid cd17-18.

I have been super cranky lately with no clue as to why.  Yesterday I heard a song on the radio by Jason Aldean "Laughed Until We Cried" and there is a verse that goes. "Just the other night the baby was crying, so I got out of bed and rocked her awhile, and I held her tight, and told her it would be alright. My mind traveled back to a few years ago, we tried so long we almost gave up hope, and I remember you, coming in and telling me the news. Oh man, we were living, going crazy in the kitchen, we danced and screamed and held each other tight, and laughed until we cried." If you don't know the song, it is a good one. Anyway, I thought about how happy we were when we got our bfp and were laughing and crying and then about how we are back to trying and feeling so defeated....almost giving up hope again. Started balling on the way home. I was able to hold it together until I saw DH and then broke down again and started crying. DH was way confused!!

So, I am an emotional mess right now and the only word I can think of when it comes to trying again this month is "defeated". But, I am trying to hold my head high and look towards the day we get another bfp.

Sorry for my long rant....how is everybody else doing? Where are you in your cycle this month? Doing anything different?

Dana- I still have days to where I break down. I had 13 weeks to love a baby and didnt know anything was wrong.I hope you get your BFP quickly with a take home baby. *hugs*

My update is I have been going to a RE my prosterone levels were at a 7. That is Low on there scale and will be starting me on 50mg to make my Ovulation stronger. Today I let my PA know we will not be trying yet I am just not ready. And they do not want to see me again until we are. To bad I guess for my headaches & dizzness I have been having.

Awww, Dana, my heart goes out to you... Just reading those lyrics made me tear up. I will have to look that up later so I can listen to it. I really hope you get your bfp soon.This journey can be a tough pill to swallow.
Princess,I think it is good to honor your feelings. We skipped a month because I just didn't think I could deal with yet another bfn after our first failed IUI. We originally were going to skip 2-3 months but 1 month ended up being long enough for me(kinda).
As for an update, this cycle was IUI attempt #2.
I went in for an ultrasound on the fourth of July(Mon) and they saw 2-4 good sized follicles. Then late that night I did my trigger shot and Wed morning DH and I went in for the IUI. DH's sperm count was low again, in fact it was even lower than the last time :(
I feel weird about the whole thing. The first time I was not as positive feeling or hopeful about the IUI as this time but after hearing the SA results I was kind of deflated.
On the non-baby front, DH's company got bought out and they laid off 85% of the workforce. Fortunately, he was one of the 14 people that was offered a job in the new company's corporate office so due to the job prospects in Tampa, FL and the fact that, luckily, I can do my job from anywhere, we decided to accept the offer and will be moving to Nashville, TN sometime in the next 2-3 months. DH actually grew up there until he was about 13 but I have never even visited Nashville! Ahhhhhh!!! I don't even like country music, lol! :)

@Princess: I guess it never goes away, huh? Good for you that you are taking the time that you need if you are not ready to take that step just yet. We did that a few months ago too, just having that time where you don't have to think about O and DTD on schedule feels great. I hope when you are ready you see a bfp quickly.

@G8R: I am sorry about the way you are feeling. I completely get it! You try so hard to do everything right and you have no control at all. Keeping my fingers crossed for you this month! Yay that DH got an offer! Just up and moving like that would scare the heck out of me but good for you! I would love to go to Nashville, I am a country girl though!! That song I was talking about is country, just to warn you, lol :)

There isn't anyone else around?

Hi, I've lurked on these boards for awhile but have never posted anything. My DH and I have been TTC for 17 months now. I was diagnosed with PCOS and started seeing a RE earlier this year. We finally got a BFP in early May but I ended up miscarrying at 10 weeks and having to have a D&C a few weeks ago. It was absolutely devastating. We are still waiting on the go ahead to start trying again. I'm hoping that clomid works to help me to ovulate again before we need to move onto anything else. 

I hope that all of you girls get your bfp's quickly!!

Well I've been lurking long enough and finally decided to post after a loooong time...

Here's my old post for some history of our journey...

http://www.projectwedding.com/post/list/ready-to-share-2

Well back in March we attended an IVF seminar and they raffled a free IVF cycle...well we won!!! Fast forward to now....the egg retrieval was this past Tuesday and  our transfer is scheduled for Sunday morning...I'm getting nervous, excited, you name it!!!  So far we have 7 embryos and we're supposed to get a new report tomorrow.  Please pray that the cells multiply and we get some good ones!  Oh and some sticky vibes too! :)

Mike'sgirl- I am so very sorry for your loss. {{hugs}}
I hope you get the go ahead soon and it's not long before you get a sticky bean.
Baby dust and welcome! :)

Valleygirl- That is freaking amazing! Congratulations on winning the raffle and I'm sure we will be giving you even more congratulatory comments very very soon!! It sounds like you have had a long and hard journey and it also sounds like your turn is just around the corner. Please, come back to update us when you find out. I will be crossing fingers and toes for you.
baby dust... :)

Hi ladies,

I don't really post in here any more, but I popped in to see what's been going on and I just wanted to give ALL of you ((BIG hugs)) for what you've gone through.  I'm keeping you all in my prayers!!  I cannot wait for the day when all of you get your BFP. 

<3<3

Allie

Dana - I am actually freaked out about the move because we just moved into this house that DH had before we met less than 6 weeks ago. I just finished unpacking about 98% of everything. blah...
I'm going to have to get used to being surrounded by country music so this song is as good a place to start as any. I do like Dolly Parton and some Johnny Cash stuff so I don't totally hate it. And after watching The Voice I really like Blake Shelton.
That's something, right? LOL! :)

I was wondering the same thing! 

@Dana - I completely understand! I hope this month will be your month! FX

@Princess - I am so sorry for your loss, I hope taking time off will be good for you.  FX for a BFP asap!

@Jady - I hope IUI #2 is the BFP fo ryou! Good luck with the move. 

@mikesgirl - Welcome! 

@ValleyGirl - thats amazing! I hope everything goes great for you on Sunday! Keep us updated!

As for me, Its so hard and everyone around me is getting pregnant no problem. Its so hard to stay positive. I started pulling away from my cousins (who are both pregnant), I am throwing both of them seperate baby showers and its making me miserable!! :-( They keep emailing every day for rsvp updates and I just can't take it anymore. Its just hard for me to be happy for them when I want this so bad too.

We are on round 3 of Clomid 100mg, I go in Wednesday for an ultrasound and bloodwork. I am so super hopeful that it works!!! Im trying not to be so hopeful but I can't help it! I really hope! I'm waiting for Allie to have a baby dream about me! =)