Hey ladies!  Had our u/s today to see heartbeats, and they could only confirm one.  She could clearly see the sac and our little gummy bear on the right, HB of 119.  But all she could see on the left side was a sac, and even at that it was not as large as you'd expect.  She did move it once where it looked like maybe part was hidden but there and may have had a flicker.  She said she could only confirm one, but wouldn't rule out a second but when the dr. came in to talk to us, he said he sees it as only one healthy, strong baby.  I am not sure how he could be so definitive when he didn't actually look on the machine himself.  Either way, he released me to my regular OB/GYN so I guess we will assume one baby unless we find out differently sometime next month :( 

DH seemed to be ok though a little disappointed, but I am really bummed.  I know that this is better from a health/risk standpoint and will be easier for us living in a new place, starting a new job but I was really looking forward to twins.  Maybe we will be surprised again when we get our next u/s, whenever that may be, but I am just going to go forward focusing on becoming the mommy to the one, strong healthy baby we know is there.  Here's a picture of our gummy:

Ok, I fixed it so the dark black hole on the LEFT is where the other sac may or may not be. 

Oh Laurie...I don't know what to say actually....I'm so very glad about your strong little bean, but I'm also sad for the second one :(. I heard about a similar story a couple months ago, but the girl had some spotting during her 4th week and when they confirmed the pregnancy with the u/s, they could see 2 sacs but only one heartbeat...the bleeding was probably caused by the loss of the first embryo.

Anyway, you have every right to be disappointed and sad about this. Even though it's early in the pregnancy, you were already the momma of these 2 little beans. So if you need to vent or talk about it, we're there for you...

Still praying for a surprise on your next u/s!

Im so sorry Laurie :( I know how much you want twins. But maybe like pavez19 said, you might just get your surprise healthy twin at your next u/s. Its so so early still (((6wks/5dys right?... your a day or 2 ahead of me))) to see everything clearly. Look how sweet your little baby is already :)  

Praying your next u/s has you leaving with 2 babies that you can upload for us to see!

I'm sorry :(  Like the PP said, it's still pretty early, so there is lots of progress to me made throughout your pregnancy that will give you the most difinitive answers.  Either way, we are here for you. 

Gummy is the sweetest gummy!  (And strong and healthy--yay!!!)  Sending hugs and prayers!

Keeping everything crossed that gummy's buddy is playing hide & seek xxx

Gosh, what a hard appointment, Laurie. I'm so sorry that you got this news. I know you have been preparing for two, and that attachment is immediate. I wish the doctor had been able to look at everything before giving an official opinion. BUT -- like everyone else -- I am keeping my fingers crossed that perhaps you will see something more definitive at your next U/S. (The wait between those first few appointments is agony :-( )

I'm so happy that you saw one strong, healthy gummy! Love that pic! {Hugs}

Aww it's great to hear that the one you saw is healthy! But I really hope the other one is just hiding :( I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you!

What a roller coaster! I can't imagine how that feels. I missed your orig post how did they know it was twins in the first place? Hopefully you'll get another u/s soon! Congrats on your healthy bean :)

Oh Laurie, I'm so sorry but I hope it's really hiding.

I know exactly how you feel though.  When I did my transfer, we had two very strong 5 day old blasts and transferred both of them.  DH and I were sure we were going to have twins.  When they told me my beta levels, I thought they were slightly high and just had that feeling.  But when I went to my last RE appointment, he only found one heartbeat.  We were so disappointed.  People kept saying it was for the best, ie easier pregnancy, less financially straining, etc etc.  But given how HARD it was to get pregnant, we really wanted to be guaranteed siblings!  I know it sounds selfish bc we should be happy that we have one but it does pain me to know that we technically conceived two beans and I couldnt hold on to one of them...

hugs to you...

Thanks ladies!! I am feeling a little better today.  Trying to focus on the positives: I can try cloth diapering (thought it would be too overwhelming with two), going to try to BF (didn't think I could with two and a FT job), I can't fit a double stroller in the trunk of my hybrid...all minor things in the grand scheme, but we are really happy and thankful to see the one baby we did.  (Still secretly hoping to find the other baby in there, practicing hde and seek).

@christy - I don't think I ever made a post here, just over in TTC group.  Basically, my last pg they were concerned it was ectopic but my levels never got high enough to see anything on u/s.  This time, they did early u/s to check sac placement and you could see two on the inital u/s.  Each sac had a small pole inside, which is why they felt like both would hold.  I didn't put a pic up before, but I have put it below.  They are small, but clearly two.

@DMN - thank you for understanding how I feel.  That is it exactly!  And after having m/c and then having one (likely) not take this time, it just adds to my stress level and makes me feel a bit like a failure.  I know I am not doing anything wrong, but I feel like that is something wrong with me that causes this.  But, we do have ONE that is thriving so I guess I'm not all bad!