aww, ccia....at least you can admit its something you need to work on, and are trying to work through. That shows maturity, and definitely shows hope! And I'm sure it will get easier for you to open up as time goes on.
For me its been having to cook every day! LOL. When I lived alone, I came home and just ate a sandwich or went to the gym, or did whatever I wanted. But now I have to come home and make dinner...I don't want us to eat out every
day cause we need to save money...and DH doesn't cook much so its on me! But I still love being married....so far! :o)