Dec 27, 2012
So we will start this out on the morning of December 27th...after 4 hours of sleep it is finally time to get up and transform into a bride. I round up my girls in the hotel drag them down to a lovely fruit breakfast then out in the freezing cold to travel to the hair and makeup salon. There my makeup artist and hair artist do a fabulous job doing exactly what I wanted. I could only afford to get the girls airbrush foundation figuring they needed a good foundation at least for the rest of their makeup....but my makeup artist and her assistants helped them with all the rest of their makeup then cleaned it all up for free. So we all left there looking beautiful.
We head back to the hotel with just an hour and a half to spare to get the bridesmaids and flowergirls hair done, everything into the cars and out to the venue to set up. But lo and behold the cousin I had employed to do the girls hair had decided to run off with her boyfriend...so I did it very quickly in the hotel room...it wasn't what I had hoped it would be but for someone who can't even do her own hair I think I did a ballin' job.
We get over to the venue running about 30 minutes late because of course when someone who can't do hair does hair it takes that much longer....the cousin finally shows up as well as like half my family to help set up...and you would think this would make quick work of things, but instead it just led to chaos with everyone asking me every two minutes what I needed done. I realize they were trying to help and wanted my day to be perfect so they didnt want to take any initiative but at the end of the day I just need it done. My braid is falling out I'm all sweaty and now I'm starting to lose it because everyone is needing me and I'm running late to go get ready and now my hair is falling out.
My mom came and stopped me hugged me prayed over me and sent me to go get ready saying they would all be fine without me.
We all go to the bridal cottage to get ready and my cousin shows back up to rebraid my hair. Luckily the intricate pinned up curled part still stayed up. I get ready remembering things like I have no one to run the music for the ceremony at the last minute and having people go run and find other people so that all these things I forgot about can be done, since I can't go do them myself at this point cuz I have the big white dress on.
But everything got done, everyone got down the aisle, my flowergirls were cute as buttons, and I heard a bunch of sniffles coming from the first few rows as we said our heartfelt vows :D
Well I forgot to mention that uh while the bride and the bridesmaids are waiting outside the chapel to go in...in the freezing cold....the groom and groomsmen had no idea the wedding was starting. No one told them so they were all still chillin in the grooms room...but all in all it was just a slight hiccup. WE GOT MARRIED! WOOT!
Then of course its tons of pictures out in the freezing cold because I picked the venue because it was so naturally beautiful....my hands went beyond red to purple. Shoulda had mittens. But or photographers! I can't even tell you how amazing they were. So fun to work with. Totally understood my vision. And they went above and beyond anything I could have expected. All night long everyone kept telling me how awesome they were and I definitely agree.
Now I planned my reception to be a big family get together not some formal stuffy reception so it had been going on for about an hour when we walked in and I was perfectly ok with that. Everyone seemed to have a great time and said they could see me shining through in all the decor and ideas and what not. Which was perfect. Things weren't all set up the way I had envisioned but everything was full of love. Our love for eachother, and our family and friends love for us. You could feel it in every little thing. So even though as the bride who planned it I knew things weren't perfect....in a way it was perfect.
And we danced. And we talked. I didn't really eat but the groom and everyone else did. And we cried, oh how we cried. But it was a beautiful night.
I danced with my Dad and he made me bawlllll my eyes out. He said all those things that lost lonely little girls need to hear. And he told me he loves Kyle and he is so proud of the woman I have become.
I hugged my stepmom and I said all those things a bitter young woman needed to hear years ago from a young daughter who never could understand why things were so awful between them. And we cried. She didn't say those things I've always wanted to hear but sometimes you have to make the first step....and I took it.
And then we decided to wrap up the reception two hours early cuz I was getting tired and cranky and my back was killing me, and everyone else seemed to be wanting to wrap it up to. So we left and I don't regret it. My wedding was perfect mostly because of how imperfect it was.
Thank you ladies for the encouragement, advice and support you all offered me. It's almost like you guys walked me up to that aisle so I could walk down and become the happiest woman alive. :)
My grandmother is making my cake....A giant gingerbread house that everyone can munch on throughout the evening :) She is in the process of designing it so I can't wait to see what she comes up with
She is also making my sisters flower maiden dress I'll post pics later of course :)
My ladies are wearing Alfred Angelo dresses in hunter green 7016 if y'all want to take a look
and my maid of honor is wearing 7193 also in hunter green
These are our invitations we made the other day
and we won't be serving dinner but we will be having veggie fruit and cheese trays along with a dessert bar and a hot chocolate bar
and lastly we will have notecards set out for people to leave us advice and encouragement and they can put them in the mr and mrs stockings we'll have hung on the fireplace in the venue
So excited to have finally found my dress :D
So how we met...I mean there is the basic story...I guess I could tell you that. Once we get into the details though Kyle and I have to agree to disagree ;) he swears I was wearing green shorts, but I know I didn't even own green shorts at the time. We met at a college bible study called CNX (run by HCBC.) The first week he vaguely registered on my mind but I had just gotten out of a relationship after finding out about his other "relations" so I really wasn't interested in looking for anyone. The next week I had a really bad headache when I came, he noticed that I wasn't feeling well and that no one was really talking to me so when I got up to leave he followed me out and asked if I had a facebook. He added me that night and we messaged back and forth until CNX the next week. Wednesday after bible study a bunch of us went out to IHOP somehow we ended up sitting near eachother, he made me a paper heart from part of the menu and the rest....well the rest is history. Haha well not quite the next night we had CNX again and we both showed up, after small groups in which I'd revealed some of the hard details of my past he followed me outside and we stood in the street talking. Being him (slightly a mister goody two shoes) I wasn't expecting anything as I didn't think he could handle my past and all the scars it had left. But that night out in the street he chose to stand by me to care for me and not leave me...that's when I decided I liked him, and I guess he liked me too because later that night I got the sweetest most romantic I like you message in the history of the world. Now I could say thats when everything fell into place but it wasn't until a few nights later that the real story began...I had given him my number after he sent me his I like you message and we texted back and forth. One night (about 4 days later) I text him that I'm feeling really low and slightly depressed. So what does he do? Shows up at my front door at 11 at night to bring me icecream and offer his company. We talk and talk until 3 in the morning and I lay out everything on the line. The abuse, the sex, the brokenness that had been my life, and I give him the choice to walk away now. He sat for awhile thinking and then he tells me "you aren't what I had imagined, that virginal fairytale princess. but I won't abandon you. I won't walk away just because you have a past. I was fighting with God about this about staying because my selfish desires want to run. But God hasn't left you and its about time that I let go of my plans and let Him write the story. And I have a feeling this is going to be the best fairytale ever written and you will be the most beautiful princess" and that is when him and I became an us. And we became inseperable....
Then came the proposal 4 months later....
So I knew he had the ring, I'd gone with him to try rings on...I knew he took my Dad out to talk to him because I'd suggested the restaurant....and still I waited....and waited some more.
But then he asked me out on a date, he said I could dress up. We hadn't gone on a dressed up date in awhile. So I had a lot of fun getting ready. And I show up and he's speechless ;) We went out to Chili's (which apparently was not his first choice but due to time constraints he had to pick what was close.) And then at dinner he asked if I would go on a walk with him later. Now walking under the stars happens to be a favorite past time of mine, so of course I was all over that. So we get in the car and he hands me my black boots (I say this because my dress was black and he knows me better than to give me my brown boots when I'm wearing black) and we drive off. Then we show up at the place we ended our first date, a private park/lake way back in this neighborhood. Now of course I'm excited because I had suggested just a few days before that we should go back there sometime because it was so beautiful...and here we are. But there is another car in the parking lot so I'm looking for these other people....now we walk hand in hand over the hill and what do I see? A bunch of paper bags lit up with candles inside lining the walk way all the way down to the dock, and then candles all over the dock. Its breathtaking....but I'm really worried we are intruding on someone else's private moment. Somehow Kyle convinced me we should just go check it out. So we walk out onto this dock and he starts a conversation with me about where we've been and where we are going....then I see a sign and I'm like let me go look at that. It says Kyle & Jessica, my whole heart for my whole life. And that is the moment it all became real, this was all for me. My love had set this up for me. And it was beautiful. So we sit down and we start talking and then he slips off the bench onto one knee....and he asked me to be his bride. And life will never ever be the same! But it will be different in the most glorious way, because I said yes.
Christmas Christmas Christmas! Gingerbread houses, stockings, mistletoe, holly, pinecones, garlands, and wreaths this is the stuff my wedding will be made of. I'm thinking ball ornaments signed in sharpie and hung on a set up Christmas tree for a guest book....Mr. and Mrs. stockings hung on the giant stone fireplace with a small table full of notecards and pens for advice you can stuff our stocking with. Christmas cards strung on twine across the front of the banquet tables, and a gingerbread house front and center on the cake table with cupcakes and christmas cookies. I'm thinking fur muffs for the bridesmaids instead of bouquets and possibly a fur stole for the bride :) red vests under charcoal suits for the guys with maybe candy cane striped ties. Maybe even tacky Christmas sweaters for us to leave the reception in.....oh the possibilities! Going to visit the venue with the mothers in June and to pick out my dress with all of them finally together! AHHHHHHhhhhh suddenly everything starts to become more real. Now if only i could get it to lightly dust snow on our wedding day.....now that would be a Texas wedding miracle ;)