Oct 04, 2015
We have finally settled on the fact that the big wedding (on or near Halloween) is just not going to happen for us or atleast not anytime in the near future. I want to have a special day and I hope that it's filled with nothing but happiness but my expectations have gone down to almost zero. We discussed doing the wedding this year and even doing it in a month but that feels so rushed to me. I don't even know why that matters anymore to me but it still does. So we decided on doing it in the summer next year. I don't feel rushed but at the same time I'm at the point where I just want it over with too. Makes no sense, I know.
My life is busier and crazier than ever. We bought a house last month! Yay! And my DH got a new job that he truly likes. Yay again! I am starting the process of signing back up for college and I'm loving the thought of actually finishing my degree. Everything is in a good place for us. That is until it comes to our families. I am no longer speaking to anyone in my family. It's a long, long story and I don't have the energy or the desire to even get into it but I doubt that I will ever speak to any of them ever again. I'm done. I'm just done with them. And my FH's family is causing so much stress on us right now it makes me feel sick to my stomach. They never call to just say hi or how are you doing? The only reason that they call is to ask for money. And they guilt us into it every time. My FH's parents are very bad off financially and they have been depending on us to give them money. Every time the phone rings I hope that it's not them calling again.
So I will not be having my 'dream wedding' or even anything close to it. I know that the only thing that matters is that I have my FH and we love each other but sometimes you just need to vent. Thank goodness for places like PW filled with lovely ladies who I can vent too. I don't even know what to do about the wedding anymore. :(