Apr 24, 2015
Well, I have managed to pick a venue and a date! For me that is huge! Thought I found a dress too, but now rethinking it. Fiance saw a pic and doesn't like it. I think it's that he wants to see me in something a bit sexier but also, the details on the dress I chose are flowers. His first wife lived in Laura Ashley and loved flowers on everything! I think there is a similar dress by the same designer that has different details so I am thinking I will make an appointment to try it on. I think most men wouldn't notice a detail like that but he is the kind that would. It's a little disappointing but if that's the biggest problem I have, I'm not doing so bad! It's so nice to have a community here that is so supportive and understanding. The ladies here are amazing and I feel so lucky to have found such a great place to help manage the crazy!
Well, the plan was to get married in August of 2014. Since it is now October of 2013 and I haven't even picked a venue, we decided this weekend that we need to push the date back :(. I know that it is my fault, I really haven't done anything concrete. I haven't even tried on a single dress. I'm not sure what exactly is holding me back, I am so excited to marry my FI! I think I might still be haunted by my first wedding almost 20 years ago...... I didn't get anything I wanted, I settled on everything. I am so afraid that I will end up doing that again that I can't seem to finalize any decision at all! We know what we want, I have done tons of research, I just need to make a choice and then go with it. We decided yesterday that April of 2015 would be a good time for the wedding, after the holidays but before the summer heat. I have been researching mostly Riviera Maya, Mexico resorts as they seem to offer the best options for us since we have to bring all 3 kids. I hope this feeling of anxiety at every little decision calms down...... It's time to put on my big girl pants and get to planning!!!