Jan 29, 2011
on the 26th of october i had my 37 week appointment with my doctor and i was so excited because i knew he was going to book me into be induced the following week, he said bub was back to back and i would need pain killers lol but she looked perfect on the ultrasound :)
the following day i was off bed rest after being on it for 4 weeks, it was a nice hot day so i put a nice summer dress on, went and visited my mum at work and then went and saw my sister and watched a movie with her. she told me to keep bub in until next wednesday :)
then it all Started.... Thursday night at around 6.15pm I was standing in the kitchen about to serve up tea when I suddenly felt a gush come from between my legs and sort of panicked (my first thought was, that my waters had broken) and ran to the toilet... I wiped straight away to see if it was clear or not... It was bright red blood and alot of it!! I kept wiping and the blood kept coming, I yelled out to Isaac and he came running in... I told him to call the hospital straight away. He started calling them while I was still on the toilet trying to figure out how I was going to stop this blood from gushing out!
Hospital told us to come up straight away obviously... We got in the car and drive straight there! When we went in they wheeled me straight up and put the trace/monitor on me and they found her heart beat straight away... A massive sigh of relief came over me that she was still moving and was still alive!!
The doctor finally came in after my mum and sister arrived... He did an internal and wanted to know where the blood was coming from. The minute he finished he said 'you won't be leaving without a baby tonight! And I'm afraid the only safe way is to cut her out' I told him to do what needs to be done to make sure she was ok and healthy! inside i didn't fully understand what he had said and no one was there except the nurses, isaac was outside ringing his father and at that stage he thought that everything was ok... but it wasn't. He explained to me that my placenta has ruptured and it is falling away from my uterus! I was shocked because I had my 37 week appointment yesterday and they did an ultrasound and it was all good!!!
So it's now about 7.30pm and they have brought in all these forms for us to fill out and sign! Isaac was very over whelmed and wasn't sure what to do... And truthfully neither was I, I was soo scared about getting the spinal done, more so than I was about having a ceaser done! They eventually wheeled me up to surgery where I really started to shit myself! I was soo scared and so not ready because it was all happening so fast!!isaac was taken into a tea room with the doctor and he waited there until i was taken into surgery. the surgeon who did the spinal block was talking heaps about the risks, complications and everything but i don't remember much... i did ask her at the end if it was going to hurt though.
It was about 8pm when they finally did my spinal! And I was shocked with how much it didn't hurt! I was expecting a massive needle that would just absolutely hurt but all it was, was a lot of pressure and a sting like any other needle! By the time they had finished that and rolled me back onto my back I could hardly feel my legs! I felt all warm and tingerly all over except for my face! It was the most surreal feeling! Going completely numb from my neck down and not having control over Anything!! When they wheeled me into the operating room, I felt like I was having a really bad nightmare! i remember thinking 'where's isaac?' Then isaac came in, all dressed up in his scrubs lol he looked so scared and so worried!! He held my hand and spoke to me the entire time they were getting her out!
8:42pm we heard it! The tiniest, cutest little cry! Just a few cries at first and then a few more!! I couldn't believe it!! They held her up over the curtain and both Isaac and I were in disbelief that our daughter was out, our daughter was perfect and healthy!!! They stitched me up and Isaac cut the cord and got to watch them clean her up! She didn't cry the entire time they were doing that! Every one kept telling us how small she was and how gorgeous she is! When I finally got out into recovery I held my daughter for the first time and she took straight to my boob! She was half an hour old and she was already latched and sucking down very hard!
The doctor came and saw me and he said my placenta would not have lasted much longer, he said I was very lucky to get to the hospital when I did because it could have been very dangerous for me and for grace!! he said my placenta was 42 weeks old at 37 weeks, grace was so tiny because my placenta had almost stopped giving her what she needed to grow :(
We finally got back up to the ward at about 10pm... My mum and Sam were there waiting! They were in complete shock and in awe that she was out and she was tiny and beautiful!!! my mum held her first and they got loads of photos while i was set up in the bed. my legs were tingling and some of the feeling was coming back. mum, sam and isaac didn't leave until late that night.
So there it is! My daughter Grace Anne goldsmith was born on the 27th of October at 8:42pm, weighing 6lbs 2ozs 45cms long...with a head full of curly brown hair, blue eyes.She is truly a beautiful miracle!!
i stayed in hospital for 6 days after grace was born. i didn't sleep at all from thursday morning until saturday morning, when the nurses took grace so i could get some sleep. i was breastfeeding and i didn't think i was doing a good job. friday i had a lot of visitors, mum, sam, elise and aiden, brad and kiwi, marcus, joss and emily, marco and kelly, annie and of course isaac. that day i got out of bed, the nurses said if i could walk to the toilet then i could go down stairs... so i did :) but i broke down that night, i thought i wasn't doing a good job and i got what they call the baby blues... but when i got some sleep that night i felt better the next day :)
we bathed grace on the sunday afternoon and she got weighed again, we dressed her in a 00000 suit and she was adorable, i continued to breastfeed grace while in hospital and we were doing ok. i brought her home on the tuesday at 1pm, it felt weird taking her home by ourselves.
after 3 weeks of pushing myself to breastfeed and both grace and i getting frustrated, we were struggling to latch on properly. i expressed for another week and then dispite going through so much guilt and frustration we put grace on formula.
they say the first 6 weeks are hard and they are but they go so fast! grace is now 16 weeks old.... and i would go through all this again in a heartbeat
ALL of these are non-pro pictures!!!
my mum and us
Isaac's mum and Dad and us
Isaac's mum and Dad and Step Mum and us
my Nan, My sister (maid of honour) my Mum and us
Isaac's brother (groomsman) his girl friend, Isaac's mum, Dad and step Mum and us
WAITING on all the pro photos that have the Family photos in it!!
I had SOOO much fun the morning of getting ready!!
here are the photos!!
it was suppose to say EST not EXT.....but i didnt mind!
this was 8am lol
love this photo!! "ooh now we have to put it on hahaha"
me and my mum just before we left
airing off in front of the fan!